A Mothers Anthem

I am the mother of a diabetic child. I don’t know what it’s like to go to sleep at night and know for certain my child will wake up in the morning. I don’t know what it’s like to sleep the whole night through without waking up to do blood tests on my sleeping child. I don’t know what it’s like to prepare a meal without a calculator, measuring cups, and a gram scale. I don’t know ...what it’s like to drop my child off at school and know he will always be in the care of someone who knows how to take care of him. I do know what it’s like to force feed sugar in the middle of the night knowing I am sacrificing my child’s teeth to save his life. I do know what it’s like to draw up insulin at 2 am and pray to God I’m not too sleepy to make a fatal error in judgment, technique or calculation. I do know what it’s like to sit underneath the dining room table holding my sobbing child, explaining to him, “No, we can’t take a break just this one time.”while I inject insulin into his already bruised arm. I do know what it’s like to walk away from the pharmacy counter with an armload of supplies and realize I’ve just gone through another box of 200 syringes. I do know what it’s like to help my child march bravely past the juice and cookies at the school reception that was supposed to be his reward for achieving Student of the Month. I do know what it’s like to look into my child’s eyes and tell him he has an incurable disease and explain to him what that means, And then to be comforted by him when I’m the one who can’t stop sobbing. I do know what it’s like to love and cherish my child every minute of every day, to know that I may someday donate a kidney to him, and that if he were in need of a heart, mine would be out of the question, because it broke a long time ago.I am the mother of a diabetic child. Author: Unknown

Sunday, August 24, 2014

The almighty dreaded 1st sleep over…..



Well I did it…took the plunge….jumped off into the deep end of the pool…took a deep breath and let my son do his very 1st sleep over EVER. Yes I said ever. When Michael was diagnosed on March 21, 2012, he was 9, about to turn 10 in a few months. He was just at the age to start doing sleep overs with his friends when the beast decided to rear its ugly head. So needless to say, his little life and all the things that were supposed to come with it, got put on hold. Mainly LIVING got put on hold. All the things that kids are supposed to do, got stripped away in one single dreaded morning. That morning of DX 3/21/12, the day from hell.

You never realize how much you take for granted until your life gets thrown off course. Kids are supposed to be riding their bikes outside, playing in the dirt, stubbing their toes, going swimming, playing football in the street only to hear their mother yell “how many times do I have to tell you kids not to play in the street”. They are supposed to be able to go spend the night at their friends and eat crappy food and tell ghost stories and stay up really late. That’s what is supposed to happen, that is what is supposed to be….but then blam…in your face…Type 1 Diabetes kicks your ass and your whole life stops.

For 2 years since DX, we have learned how to manage the day to day aspects of this disease. Learned how to finger point, inject, count carbs, feel the lows, feel the highs, battle the mood swings, dry the tears, but really, the life got sucked out of us. But little by little, we learned how to accept, how to cope and how to roll with the punches. He is now 12, and like I said, the very 1st sleep over ever, finally happened!

Aug. 2nd, 2014, my son got his freedom. The freedom to just BE. To just be a little boy, with his friend and feel like he was for once in his life, in control of himself. Now granted, the mother of the little boy he stayed with is a Nurse and the dad, a Type 2 Diabetic. So this was kinda a no brainer and something a tad easier for me to do. Let me tell you….my son is just amazing! Of course when the parents came to pick up my son, the whole 1 hour crash course/drink from a fire hose education process took place. You know, the whole..okay, carb ratio is X, correction dose is X, min finger pokes is this, Levemire gets given at X time, oh and please set an alarm for 2:30 to do a BG check and please text me his number. Oh and here is how you administer the Glucagon!  Oh, and please forgive me if I call you 1,000 by tomorrow morning.

Well after they took the drink from the fire hose, off my son went. He left with out me being in tow, and off he went to manage his life. Well he did it! 1 ½ hours into it..I get a text…Mom, don’t panic….well shit, thanks, you know what that means right! He’s LOW! 2 seconds later, text comes from the mom…Christy, he's low, don’t worry, 4 starburst and juice is on the way! He's going to be fine! So my mind is racing and of course, panic sets in, but I know and I have to trust that he is in good hands and knows what to do. Recheck due in 15 minutes to confirm his BG has come up….the longest 15 minutes of my life, but yes, I got the text and BG had increased to safe level. Whew…okay we got that!

So he went to dinner with his friend, then they went to the movies and went home. My son texted me his numbers throughout the night, he facetimed me when it was time to inject his Levemire and he answered his phone whenever I called. But hey, I was good, I did not call too often. The night time is the hardest for me as well, you know, night time is the scary time. But needless to say, the night went off without a hitch. He had the best time ever, and he made it just fine. They played video games, watched movies, ate pizza, ate rootbeer floats and just did kid stuff.

After 2 years, I was finally able to give up control and put control into my son’s hands. I let him know that he was a very responsible young boy and that I trusted he would be able to do this just fine. AND HE DID! He came home so happy, a smile from ear to ear….that is what makes it all worth it. The smiles, the giggles, the happiness that comes from just being a boy and just being able to BE.

We are getting there, I am getting there and my son is getting there. We have a long way to go, so many things to still learn, but slowly we are getting there.
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